Monday, December 17, 2007

Peace and Prayers

Wow, the countdown has begun for our move. I find myself on an emotional roller coaster right now. We are hitting some snags with finding a place to live, that is within our budget. It looks like I may need to go to work temporarily which I am really struggling with.

I found myself realizing that I was angry with God for a period of a few hours today. Why would God provide a great opportunity for us to move back closer to family and then allow things to happen where I would have to go back to work? I am still struggling to find these answers, but as the day has gone on, I have been finding a bit more peace about it.

I come to you and ask for your prayers. We need clarity and strength during this time. We need focus and discipline. I find myself remembering Matt 6:34

Therefore, do not be anxious about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

And Philipians 4:6-7 as well,

The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving in your heart let your requests be known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

What I want right now is to be able to move into a new place, get unpacked, and find things for the children and I to do. To be their mother, but now I must come to an acceptance that I may need to help support my family and even though my life is not working out the way I envisioned it, that's ok, because it's God's plan and vision for my life that I need to accept not mine. So, please pray for me and my arrogance. That I can come to peace with the fact that I may need to work and that God will provide the perfect job for me, the perfect childcare situation that we need, and most of all that me working is just a temporary thing to help us get more acclimated to living in Round Rock.

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